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Oh Eternal God-Emperor, preserve us from the dangers of the Fediverse.
When will the Mastorati begin using their massive influence for good? or evil? or basically anything other than memefluencing?
You can't get better if you quit.
Now that JJ Abrams ruined Star Trek and Star Wars, wonder what he'll ruin next.
Sydney, is -- is it an odor?
Obscure MST3k joke aside, I don't.
I don't understand what has gone on with my brain for most of my life.
I don't get other people, and other people don't get me, but *I* don't get me.
I planned to "relax" today -- worked.
I planned to write the other day, did robot stuff.
I planned to do this, that, the other thing. Sometimes, sure, it's just "other people's shit and bad luck influenced things", but not always. Not consistently.
So I spend a lot of time trying to channel my self-sabotage into useful things. Channel my drug use by, say, drinking less heavily and more widely, and then I can kind of shoehorn it into a sort of sleep aid sometimes, frex. (Large amounts of alcohol have the opposite effect, but small amounts do sometimes aid sleep, and they have for me.)
Is this life for everybody? Do all humans have to guess how they're going to fuck themselves over and try to out-gambit themselves?
(unless it's one of those awful little Japanese plastic cabs anyway)
Well I know I said I'd take pictures of the flipper rebuild on Alien Poker but LOL I FORGOT so here's a picture of Jungle Lord instead https://mastodon.social/media/fp5tbiMD4uckw8IrLTo
it's one of those things that it always feels like 'rich' people do -- not just kajillionaires, but the 5-8%, the lucky ones who don't realize nobody else can afford the fucking apartment on Friends without six bank loans and Odin as a personal fucking reference, who think six figures a year is "average" income because it's what they make and they can 'barely afford' six kids and a giant house with a swimming pool
in their mind, they WORKED for that, dammit
and they did work for it -- nobody gets anything for nothing, except possibly after their inheritance
but they have to work x amount to achieve it
and most people work x times twenty amount to survive, and will never achieve more than 1/1000th of what the 5-8% have, never could
because they don't have the trust fund, the ivy league, the skin color, the lack of illnesses, the symmetric features, etc.
maybe it's -- well, what can I really say? perhaps it's simply that I have more experience with it. perhaps if I'd been the girl who went to brunches with caviar in my youth, I'd turn up my nose at the fact some people eat fucking spam.
maybe I'd be one of those people. maybe I was, and grew or learned out of it over time -- some parts of my memories are harder to get to than others.
but god does it piss me off.
but the fluctuations come situationally
nobody can eat? instant ramen is created. wonderful! so many can be fed!
so many more get fed, then the fact that a cheap way to feed them exists is denigrated and scoffed at as "artificial" and "synthetic"
this, to me, is offensive. I know very well what it's like to go without things, and I know I'm still one of the lucky people, born white in a rich nation.
so I don't look down on people who eat cheap.
runs so deep, so deep
'artifice' became a trick, a con, deceit
and 'synthesis' is inextricably linked to 'synthetic' though the connotations are so radically different
and 'synthetic' and 'artificial' are far more commonly used terms than 'synthesis' or 'artifice' anyway
human beings have been primally distrustful of those with unusual skillsets -- and the phenomena and technologies they have harnessed and developed -- forever
the blending of things
skill at a craft
I think the beast may be taking hold again.
I wonder what happens if you free it. Let it run, let it take over, see if it just tires itself out. Maybe it's time to find out.
HOW DID THIS GET EVEN MORE EMOTIONALLY IMPACTFUL
holy fucking snot
oh and if you're coming to terms with aging and you watch E5 of Atelier and you don't cry then you're a heartless monster
because JFC I'm weeping here, good lord
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